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The World Keeps Spinning: Finding My Footing When the Familiar Feels Unfamiliar



Life has an uncanny way of moving forward, relentlessly and without pause. The sun rises, the world spins, and the clock ticks away. Amidst this perpetual motion, I find myself struggling to feel secure in spaces that once felt familiar but now seem unfamiliar. It feels isolating—how do I navigate the chaos of a world that seems to move seamlessly while I stumble through my personal uncertainties?


The Progression of Time

Every day, I witness the world carrying on with its routine. People hustle to work, children go to school, and the seasons change. This continuity can be both reassuring and intimidating.

On one hand, it’s a reminder that life goes on; on the other, it can exacerbate my feelings of alienation when I’m struggling to find my footing. It’s as if the world is a well-rehearsed dance, and I’m missing the beat.


Spaces That Feel Like Ill-Fitting Clothes

Walking into certain environments can feel like wearing ill-fitting clothes. Whether feeling constrained and too tight, or too big like a void has been created. I’m not sure when or why this happened, but I feel like no matter what I do or say, I cannot fix what no longer fits. I find myself wondering, what did I do? Whom did I upset? Was it something I said? Yet, deep down, I know that if it was something I did or said, it is rare that I don’t take accountability. Where does this leave me, though?  It feels like a loop I can never fully close, or a seam gradually coming apart, impossible to mend. It's like struggling to reach the shore while simultaneously being carried away by a relentless current.

At times, I feel like an outsider in my usual circles, like I am new or, worse, forgotten. For me, this sense of misalignment can stem from various factors. Sometimes, my surroundings feel rigid and constraining, making it difficult for me to express myself. I fear I might come across as overly loud or forceful, always somehow too much, never quite right, or ever enough.

Social gatherings can be daunting, leaving me feeling awkward and out of place. The struggle lies not just in fitting in, but in staying true to myself.


Embracing the Discomfort

While the discomfort of feeling out of place is real, it can also be a catalyst for growth. Embracing this uneasiness can lead to profound self-discovery. When I’m out of my comfort zone, I’m pushed to adapt, learn, and evolve. It’s in these moments of vulnerability that I often find my true strengths.

Navigating unfamiliar terrain requires a mix of patience and perseverance. It’s about giving myself the grace to stumble and the courage to stand back up.


The Power of Perspective

Ultimately, it’s important to remember that everyone, at some point, feels out of place. The polished exteriors I often see are just that—exteriors. Beneath the surface, many are grappling with their own insecurities and uncertainties. Understanding this universal truth can make my own struggles feel a little less isolating.


In the end, the world keeps spinning, and while it might feel like it’s leaving me behind, I must remind myself that I am on my own unique path. My journey, though it may be fraught with challenges, is also filled with opportunities for growth and connection. 


As I stumble and strive to find my footing, I’ll remind myself to be kind, knowing that I have always found my way in this ever-spinning world, and I will continue to do the same.🌕


Thank you for being here.


Lisa Ostler

BSN, NC-BC, E-RYT 200

Student of Ayurveda


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